Well right now our house is full of sorrow and Joy I think I am truly learning what that means. We are overjoyed with the addition of the twins and the upcoming adoption finalization of our little man. And yet at the same time I am burdened with sorrow as my dear friend has been diagnosed with Leukemia. The feelings I have experienced have surprised me in many ways as I just recently watched one of my husbands mentors loose his daughter to Cancer. She was young sweet and innocent. We were devastated when she passed away. There are some things Kate Merrick wrote that now hit me harder. You see as much as I have seen cancer I have not SEEN cancer. It is something I wish no one would ever have to witness. There is something about seeing someone you love in pain. When you see them weak and weary. It is heart breaking.
In all of this I know I have two choices. I can become bitter and full of hatred and anger, or I can fix my eyes on the promise of Jesus. I choose the later. I could ask why or I could ask the LORD to come and be in the midst of this. I choose to ask Him to come. I know her cancer is treatable and I do not know how this will all end, but I do know I serve a God that is bigger then her cancer. I also know that I serve a God that loves her more then I could ever love her.
So I press on with my friend in this battle and at them same time enjoy the blessing we are experiencing in life and they feel so much more joyous! And I share those joys with her because in the midst of her pain I know the LORD intends to bless her in ways she could never imagine.
Romans 8:28 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
Romans 8:18 "I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us."
Joshua 1:9 " Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you where ever you go."
When I hear this song I feel I am both the beginning of this song at the same time and yet the theme is the same "I will bring Praise!"
